i don't know what i hate more right now. myself or the state that i'm in. once again, i've had to resort to xanax in order to get to bed and i am just now barely feeling it. today dan told me that maybe i've been feeling depressed because i might have PMDD. it's some sort pre menstrual disorder that's a little more hardcore than PMS. i read the symptoms and yes, in fact, i could have it. right now though, i could care less about myself. it's actually pretty sad. i guess this is what i get for drinking. not only do i make an ass out of myself, but then i have a couple of days of pure "SHIT" days to look forward where i feel like i'm hitting rock bottom. i don't even want to talk to my friends. i don't want them to know how shitty i feel, hence this blog, that maybe only marj will read. she's cool though. she knows what its like. well maybe not severe depression after binge drinking - but eh. ok well that and the huge headache that i've had for 2 days. i guess my parents being mad at me doesn't help either.
i am just a huge mess right now.
one hot hot mess.
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Ay Caro, what can I say. I'm here for you. Trust God, trust your parents. They love you more than anybody else could. Thank God for Dan and the people that love you (including me :) Sometimes there's nothing we can do but to do our part seeking the help we need and pray to God and ask him to do the rest. I feel like there's nothing I can do but to try to put a smile on your face by saying some of the sarcastic, funny things I usually say, but I can't think of anything right now. Oh, I tried to cut Oreo's hair myself...the poor thing looks weird now, like he's got no ears :(...Is that a smile?? :)
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