i really hate being alone

i never thought i'd say it - but i really truly hate being alone.

i don't know if it's dan switching up his work schedule, or me feeling sick lately - but i am extremely lonely. haha - it's either that or i'm very hard to please.

yesterday for example all i could think of was a nice glass of wine. i didn't wanna open a bottle for myself because i didn't wanna seem like an alcoholic, so i waited for my parents to open one. they never did. oh the frustration.

on top of that - i feel as if everyone is busy doing their own thing and i'm just kinda there. oh well. i guess i'm having trouble adapting to all of this "me" time i've been having. everything seems like such a hassle. lol it's so contradicting too because the friends that do ask me to hang out - i end up turning them down because i don't have the energy to go out.

weird.

ok. well i'll keep you updated.